1. Pray everyday
2. Do not miss Sunday mass and day of obligations
3. Better relationship with my family
4. Success of Tearrazzo Tea and Tapas Bar
5. 1 International travel (Beijing/Hongkong)
6. Coron/Boracay
7. Learn to drive
8. Complete DOST and Immmigration Clearance
9. Project H - exercise at least 4x a week, proper diet, wash face every night
10. To open my heart to love - be friendly

Lord, I am offering you this to do list. You know my thoughts even before I think of them. You have put in me these dreams and desires and I know that everything you plant within me you will never let unsatisfied. Nothing is impossible to you. I just pray Lord, that all these, all that I am and all that I do, will bring you glory and honor.

I am claiming that 2012 will be a year of goodness and blessings. I have an amazing God.

Amen.

Year 2011 did not disappoint. It was a year of reunions and exploring new boundaries. 80% of my 2011 TO DO list ticked off, and 20% that did not materialize (yet), was more than made up for by relationships healed, unexpected blessings, and new dreams to dream and achieve.

1. Joined the trippers group in the trip to Camiguin-CDO-Bukidnon Trip
2. Whitewater Rafting (CDO) and Zipline (Bukidnon)
3. Magical night watching pyrolympics Japan vs. Canada
4. Resorts World, KAOS musical and acrobatics.
5. The great Sagada Adventure (Spelunking)
6. Solo trip to Zamboanga-Dipolog-Dapitan
7. Reunion with Stat friends
8. Reunion with RAMQID with Iane's homecoming
9. Cebu-Bohol trip with girlfriends Quincy, Iane, and Donna
10. Reunion with WG sisters
11. Has gone back to attending Ligaya activities.
12. Moved on from broken relationship.
13. Improvement of my mother's medical conditionhealed foot wound.
14. Reunion with mama
15. Passport
16. Submission of Certificate pf employment to DOST
17. Student license
18. New phone, new ipod touch, new portable dvd player
19. Started learning how to drive.
20. Started wearing contact lens
21. Hair rebond
22. New business c/0 RAMQID Corp (Tearrazzo) Shop setup.


Such a long list but many more unaccounted for.

Truly Lord, you are such a generous God. What did i do to deserve all this goodness from you. I am deeply grateful for the many good things and lessons learned the past 2011. May the coming year be even more fruitful. May the seeds you planted in my heart bear much fruit. May my 2012 proclaim just how great You are.

I am bracing myself for far greater things to come this 2012! It will be "unkabogable"! :-)

1. To pray everyday
2. To have mass every Sunday, my birthday, and day of obligations
3. To communicate more frequently with Mama - text everyday, call every week.
4. To help out in household chores: wash dishes, cook meals
5. To meet new friends, and keep them
6. To rekindle old friendships
7. Project H - exercise at least 4x a week, proper diet, wash face every night
8. To open my heart to love - be friendly
9. CDO
10. Sagada
11. Palawan  

Dear Lord,

You are a faithful God. Your love knows no bounds. Nothing that I did in the past, and nothing that I can do made and can make you leave my side. Even at my state that I struggle even with the littlest of my promises, you still love me.

As this new year comes, grant me the grace to live out my resolutions and TODOS for 2011. I know that you have a lot in store for me – blessings, adventure, healing, and loving. I am claiming it as early as now. More importantly, give me the grace to be faithful to you each day of my life; to say yes to opportunities to serve you and love you through the people I encounter. Without you, I can do nothing.

Have your way with me, Oh Lord. Use me as an instrument of your love.

Amen.

Numbers 6: 24-26 –

May the Lord bless you and take care of you

May the Lord be kind and gracious to you

May the Lord look on you with favor and give you peace.

"How time flies, like a speeding bullet.."  - quoting from one of my supervisors in the office remembering the letter she wrote on her last day as a proby employee. I would always associate her with this phrase, but today i am owning it.

A lot has happened to me this year. There have been high points and low points. Career and love life, not so good this year. But all in all, it is a year of blessings.

Thank you Lord, for the many things I was able to experience this year - - for the pain that taught me to be stronger,for the joy that taught me to be grateful, for the places I have gone to and experienced your wonders. Am I a better person this year than years passed? I do not know. If I am not, is this year a waste of my life? certainly not. Surely, I have discovered a lot about myself this year. Despite the many trials and perhaps the heartbreak that I chose for myself, I come out stronger, and more independent. And all these because of you Lord. Through it all, you never leave my side. And when my eyes are full of tears that I cannot see you, you touch my heart. You have always been so faithful to me. And if I could only be even a quarter as faithful as you are, I would be a saint. I just wish to be your loving daughter. Amen.

Adventures:
1. Subic's Ocean Adventure, from our office Summer Outing, we are like grade school pupils but I sure appreciate being able to watch the dolphins and sea lion perform as it is also my first time. (ang babaw ko ba?)
2. General Santos, visiting my friend and her generous family
3. Davao, (road-trip from GenSan), visited Crocodile Farm and Blue Jazz Resort
4. Being able to watch ASAP XV Live!!! I have forgotten about the tickets I had reserved two years ago until I received their call.
5. Bicol, a solo adventure leading me to Legazpi's pride Mt. Mayon as seen in Cagsaua ruins, and did wakeboarding at the world famous Camsur Watersports Complex.
6. A lot more daily adventures unaccounted for here.

2011 will be better, I am claiming it as early as now. I will prepare my 2011 TODOS, derived from Things TO DO list and quite appropriately TODO as in TODO NA. Life is short. I will make sure to have ticked off some from my bucket list.

Every song i sing is about you, still.

Until when do i ask myself how else can i show you just how much i love you.
Until when do i ask myself what else could i have done to keep you mine.

Let me remember you with a smile.
And that when i see you, i do not cry.

What is it with May that leaves my heart broken. It was the same a year ago. but this May seems to bring some finality, and i do not want it to be real just yet. not ever.

give me warmth to wash away the glaciers thrown through my soul.

What is good about being with someone you love and who loves you back is that you can be yourself without fear of getting judged by that person. It is exhausting to always pretend to be someone you are not.

But the best thing, if not better, is to be the best of what you can be with your other half. When you love someone, it is only natural to make that person feel no doubt in their minds and hearts, that they are loved.

Love is unconditional. It is given without anything expected in return. But if there is one person who loves you truly and undoubtedly, how can you help not loving that person back.

You said i always put other people's needs before myself. I have put you, my family, my work on top of my priority list even before i think of what i want.

Everything would have been worth it, if at least i have you putting me as your number one. Nothing else would have mattered.

It's your birthday. Even if we are always together, i am hoping i'll take your top rank on your special day. We are best friends, we are supposed to be partners.  It just hurts that i may just as well be contended with where i am, and just take what is given.

I want to be someone's number one. I know i am good enough for that.

When something can't be touched,
the way you used to touch it,
it is no longer yours
the way it used to be.

Too many conditions,
always on unsure ground
it is no longer yours
the way it used to be.

Feeling nostalgic remembering Iskang Malalaya, my 2nd floor girls at Kalayaan Residence Hall '05-'06. Their pictures pop once in a while as i surf Facebook. They've grown in height, beauty, and wisdom, innocence still in their eyes, all filled with hope of bright future. Seeing them form friendship up to now makes me smile. Seeing them in their graduation pictures fills me with pride.